easily ignore . how come ? when will i learn to fit in ? or will i ever fit in ? im always left behind .but how come ? i think im nice enough, amiable ,friendly, caring . What can be possibly missing ? How come im never included in the conversations ? Never asked for outings ? Never had a surprise bday party? How come there seems as if no one else cares? Ive been lookin for the reason , but never did. So it always boils down to my outward appearance. The way i look maybe. My very normal clothes. Maybe thats it . Every time Id try to be friendly, try to open a conversation , im ignored. shut out completely .what happened to me , who everyone liked to have around ? its sad. im heart broken . disappointed. trying to suck it all up silently. as usual. no refuge . no friend.